[This is the hard part, Komaeda thinks, it's the part where he feels like he's explained himself well but apparently he hasn't. It's the confusion of others that feeds his own confusion. It's how Junko made him feel like he was less alone, because even if she didn't fight for hope she understood him. Their motivations were the same but opposite. Order versus entropy, order built from entropy.
He has to take a breath just to not fall into his usual rhetoric. He has to force himself to remember his conversations with Souda and how his eyes opened with them. He has to remember that Lila... Lila wasn't there, so that adds an extra difficulty to all of this.]
It was for hope.
Hope and despair are like opposites. If you destroy despair, then hope will flourish. Think of it like black and white, or, yin and yang. They work off of each other, and need each other. I know now that you can't completely destroy despair. But before when I was in that game, I thought that if I killed all of us emissaries of despair, then the world would heal.
We were a disease that needed to be destroyed but... that isn't the case now. We're atoning for what we did by helping to rebuild the world instead of continuing to destroy it. Or at least, the rest of my classmates are. The ones here with me... well, this place is basically like a jail cell for us, but that isn't a bad thing.
At least here in Ryslig, we can't hurt the world more than it already is.
[He pauses, but then he continues.]
Honestly, I was one of the few people that Junko didn't need to manipulate. She... saw me. My loneliness. She gave me what I wanted the most: a purpose.
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He has to take a breath just to not fall into his usual rhetoric. He has to force himself to remember his conversations with Souda and how his eyes opened with them. He has to remember that Lila... Lila wasn't there, so that adds an extra difficulty to all of this.]
It was for hope.
Hope and despair are like opposites. If you destroy despair, then hope will flourish. Think of it like black and white, or, yin and yang. They work off of each other, and need each other. I know now that you can't completely destroy despair. But before when I was in that game, I thought that if I killed all of us emissaries of despair, then the world would heal.
We were a disease that needed to be destroyed but... that isn't the case now. We're atoning for what we did by helping to rebuild the world instead of continuing to destroy it. Or at least, the rest of my classmates are. The ones here with me... well, this place is basically like a jail cell for us, but that isn't a bad thing.
At least here in Ryslig, we can't hurt the world more than it already is.
[He pauses, but then he continues.]
Honestly, I was one of the few people that Junko didn't need to manipulate. She... saw me. My loneliness. She gave me what I wanted the most: a purpose.
So, I guess... I've always been like this.