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[At first he's surprised, but then a huff of laughter winds from Komaeda, and his solemn expression cracks with a smile.]

What's with that?

[Still, it feels good to be looked after, like he really is part of that team Souda mentions—even if it's only three-people strong.

But as those finer measurements are taken of his hand, he has to keep himself from pulling his arm back. He just hopes all of this awkward touching is over soon.]

Then, I'm sorry too. For being a jerk... and also trying to kill you.

[You know... just in case he hasn't said that, yet.]

I'll take it.

[The only reason he isn't getting awkward over it is through hyperfixating on Komaeda's arm as though it were a machine. He measures knuckle to knuckle, knuckle to fingertip, and Komaeda's palms too, scratching down centimeter notes with every one.

Notably, he's been laying the measure down twice for each.]

At least it didn't end up working. And if we got you guys out, that has to mean we can find Nanami's code in there somewhere, too.

[They'll never have the real Nanami back... but the A.I. was a person of her own, too.]

We can't change anything we've done. But we can always 'repair the now'. That's my favorite magazine's motto, y'know? 'Repair the now'.

You get it?

[The conversation is a good enough distraction from the way his skin itches with all the touching. At least this situation isn't too awkward. Komaeda is just... bearing with it for now.

Still, the thought of pulling Nanami's code... well, if it weren't for his memories of what happened, he wouldn't have even known the A.I. from the real one, would he? His gaze follows the meticulous movements of Souda's hands.]

You know, Souda-kun... I thought this before, but... you're kind of dorky, aren't you?

[He shouldn't be smiling about it, but he's really smiling about it.

Too bad for Souda that he keeps talking.]

But if you were able to pull Nanami-san's code, you could make a body for her... something like a Mechanami... that's like "repairing the now," isn't it?

You could definitely do it.

[At the first comment, Souda flinches, brows creasing and frowning in a way that isn't his usual contempt at Komaeda's comments. No, the almost-worried expression suggests perhaps he's thinking to himself, perhaps he is being kind of dorky? Was that a dorky thing to say?

But Komaeda continues, and Souda's luckily distracted enough. He'll think about it later and probably sour about it again.]

Huh... yeah, come to think of it, I could. It would take a long time, there wasn't really anything to work with...

[The previous contemplative look is replaced with a fascinated one, almost manically so. The past few years outside of the simulation, he really has been pursuing every project he damn well pleases, no matter how dangerous or unreachable.]

Hell, I could probably even make a mini-bot while we're here...

[Whether it shows on his face or not, Komaeda makes note of that: easiest way to distract Souda is with a project idea.

He flexes his fingers under his classmate's touch, resisting the urge to pull away when it tickles, and instead just pressing his mouth into a thin line.]

The technology here is kind of old... all the TVs are in black and white...

[Which reminds him, just what is Souda planning for his arm?]

Can you even get the parts for a robot here? Let alone an arm? I mean... a non-functional prosthetic would be just as useful as my last arm was... Actually, even a stump has more uses than you would think!

[Now who's got a weird, fascinated look?]

You'd be amazed how long ago people were making these kinds of machines.

[He measures twice around Komaeda's wrist, and—]

There we go.

Look— Look at this one.

[He puts the tape down to pick up one of the simpler looking schematics, pointing at the individual parts.]

You don't even need a battery for some of this stuff. These pads get pushed flexing your arm, and that causes these pulleys here to respond in specific ways, flexing the fingers. And then once we get a hold of a battery, that's when those movements can really get smooth!

[The more Souda goes on about it, the more he lights up.]

Retro technology is amazing! There's no way an amateur programmer like me could create an A.I. with tech this behind, but we're really getting into the age of automation here! It's like a blank canvas for robots!

[He's... not even trying to sound like he's not drooling over it. Maybe... maybe he just really wants to make a robot arm, actually.]

[At first, the ranting takes him by surprise, but as Souda shows him the schematics—guiding his gaze—Komaeda's brows lift with curiosity.

They're much more detailed that he had initially realized, because without a guiding eye, they just looked like complex drawing. Yet, as Souda's finger traces the images, stopping at one mechanism or another, Komaeda kinda... gets it.

His gaze lifts, and rather than the drawings, he watches the way excitement blooms across his classmate's face the more he talks. After a moment, a soft laugh winds from his lungs, and seemingly out of nowhere it probably sounds like Komaeda might tease him again, but—]

You're really passionate about this stuff, aren't you?

[He wonders what it must be like to be good at something. Really good at something. To be passionate about a hobby... or, he supposes it's more like a job now for Souda.]

Well, you can build whatever you want. I'm not really picky.

[Komaeda pauses, with his gaze falling to his bandaged arm.]

I trust you.

[That gets a sort of slackjawed expression from Souda for a moment as he sits there with the papers in his hand like a robot processing a new command. It's weird, like, Komaeda laughed and usually Souda takes that as condescending, but it was more of a laugh like Giorno's when they first met. And then he went and said he trusts him. It's a lot at once.]

Ah— Yeah. Cool.

[Wow, impressive response. Souda leans back away enough to look over the schematics again and, rather than focus on the awkwardness of it all, and remembers that he can also conveniently change the subject—]

Hey, these are yours. I already ate.

[He slides the little container Makoto's food is in toward Komaeda.]

[It's probably for the best that Souda doesn't really say much more than that, because if he did, then even Komaeda would start to feel awkward. What's so bad about trusting the Ultimate Mechanic with building you a new arm???

But he accepts the container of sandwiches that slides his way, and plops it into his lap soon after.]

You said Makoto-san made these, right? I'll have to thank her later...

[He opens the container's lid and pulls out a sandwich. Then, between his one hand and his teeth, he unwraps it from its protective tin foil to take a bite.]

Hmm... what kind of stuff does she like? [He speaks around his mouthful before swallowing.] Do you know, Souda-kun?

Well, I dunno what she likes to eat, but, she does like to punch stuff...

[He kind of quiets a little, staring ahead very seriously, reminding himself never to make Makoto angry. Then he scoots away enough on his rear so that he can lay his schematics down on the floor and start annotating them according to the measurements he's taken.]

She called herself a 'normal' girl, and I dunno if being an idol really counts as normal, but, she always wears like... girly stuff, y'know?

[He pauses mid-way through another note before he mentions, less-obnoxiously-dreamily than usual, at least—]

The kind of girls that just like to look cute and girly... It totally makes sense that Sonia would like a girl with that kind of aesthetic.

[She... she likes to punch stuff??

Well, that's not the weirdest thought. Owari was always looking for a fight—but the way Souda frames it, it doesn't sound like Makoto's quite like their classmate. And when he met her, wasn't she rather timid?]

I thought you would know her well since you live together, but could it be... [His words trail as he stops himself before he can finish that thought. He probably shouldn't accuse Souda of letting his obsession cloud his view of others, even if it's probably true.] ...Never mind.

[Rather, Komaeda stares down at Souda where he's hunched over and cocks his head to look at the marks being jot down on that piece of paper.]

Don't you think it's time to give up, Souda-kun? I mean, Sonia-san has a girlfriend... and she's even rejected you enough times to make you look like a stalker.

If anything, it really shows how wonderful she is for remaining friends with you after all that!

[Souda twitches almost like he's been stabbed in the back, tail sticking out straight for a moment before curling around his side. He stops marking things down, instead flipping the pen between his fingers a few times with his nerves.

Things have already changed! But, he has to remind himself, Komaeda doesn't know that. How could he, when Souda can't even put into words how they've changed, anyway? It isn't just because of Despair, either— it's being here, it's the Imposter Sonia, it's Makoto. Everything's different.

And through it all, Sonia's still so important. Maybe more important than she was before, even if it's important in a different way.]

I never said I was gonna get in their way.

[He huffs a sigh through his nostrils, going back to scribbling.]

That doesn't... That doesn't mean I'm not gonna feel how I feel, though.

Sonia's amazing. That's that. A-and it wasn't that... bad...

[It... was a little worse on the island than it was in school, maybe. but everyone's an embarrassing freshman! Right? R-right???]

[As Souda fidgets, Komaeda's gaze remains unsettlingly steady upon him.]

I wasn't accusing you of getting in their way.

[His reply comes in sharp and short, but the expression he wears is... curiosity, maybe? Like he's still trying to figure out why Souda is so obsessed with Sonia. The reality is, he doesn't get it, but that's likely due to circumstances he won't address more than anything else.

Komaeda pulls his legs out from under him, only to bring his knees to his chest while he continues to nibble bites off of his sandwich.]

Is it a selfless love, then? Like... you don't expect it to be returned, but you want to give it your all?

[At least if it were something like that, then Komaeda could understand it a bit better.]

[Souda stops writing again, then, staring at the page, halted by Komaeda's question.]

...I dunno.

I just want...

[To be useful? To protect her? To protect them both?

Souda really isn't sure, and that frustrates him even more than Komaeda asking him in the first place. His tail swings and thumps against the wall behind him, which seems to startle him for a moment.]

Dude, I dunno! What kind of question is that, anyway?

Isn't it a normal one?

[What Souda? Bros don't just ask each other about their weird love-obsessions??

But really, Komaeda does look confused, as if he feels like this really is a normal question to ask. Or a normal topic to even needle someone about. The depth and awkwardness is a bit lost on him, and it shows in the way that he tilts his head as if he's a dog trying to listen a bit better.]

It's just that... we don't really know much about each other, Souda-kun. As far as I know, you just like machines and Sonia-san... and I don't really understand machines much, so I'm asking about your other passion.

[He pauses before taking another chunk out of his sandwich.]

I'm glad that you don't creep her out now though, back in the simulation, it was always a bit uncomfortable... don't you think?

[Souda might like to focus on how Komaeda's just opened up the idea that Souda doesn't properly know these people, but instead, he's distracted by that last comment.]

Wh— No! I mean— yeah, maybe, it's—

E-everyone's embarrassing when they're a freshman, okay!

[The room might start to feel a little hotter with Souda's fluster.]

It wasn't... that bad... in school.

Y-you just don't remember.

Embarrassing is one thing, but weren’t you being actively avoided before?

[And that went beyond just freshman year, too. That was in the simulation, which is still pretty recent for him.]

But I guess that really just goes to show how far you’ve come! Isn’t that good, then?

[A short gust of laughter winds from his lungs, but with the growing heat in the already cloistered air between them, he’s tugging at the scoop neck collar of his shirt.]

Um... Souda-kun? I’m sorry if I upset you... but please don’t burn down my apartment?

[That stops Souda mid-response. He just stares at Komaeda, wide-eyed and freaked out as usual.]

Oh man, you're right. It's too hot for this...

[He gets to his feet quickly, opening up the Apartment's window and leaning out of it. While he's there, he breathes out the fire that's been building up in him, and that heat in the apartment gets the chance to diffuse.]

I have to do this like every damn day now!

[who's trying to change the subject??? not Souda, he's simply cooling off,]

[Lucky for Souda then, that Komaeda isn't so stubborn to stick to the subject of his classmate's one-sided love.

Rather, as he watches Souda hang his head out of the window, allowing the hot air to escape and a cool breeze to flow in, he finishes his sandwich.]

What's it like having fire powers?

[He asks as he dusts the crumbs from his fingers and pushes himself back up to standing. Komaeda walks over to that window where Souda is, and shoves himself into the sliver of space left. His eyes close, as he enjoys the way the winter air swathes his heated face.]

I'm... probably going to be going through my first changes soon, huh? Everyone says they start after a month. [A pause.] It's scary but... also kind of exciting, isn't it? I wonder what I'll become.

[Souda scoots over just enough so it's not ~weird~, but doesn't give up too much space.]

It's only been good for one thing so far... otherwise, what a pain in the ass.

[He turns his gaze to Komaeda, looks him up and down, and adds—]

I have no idea what you'd be. I thought for sure I was gonna turn into one of those robot dudes, but you....

I'd say it doesn't fit, but I said that about Nanami being a plant-chick, too.

[Komaeda's elbows find the windowsill, where he leans his weight and hangs his head out to enjoy the cold.]

Makes sense, we don't know much about each other! [He exhales a laugh, the sound of it caught in the breeze as his eyes slip closed,] but Nanami-san as a nymph... that makes sense. She was gentle and nurturing, wasn't she?

[As fragmented as his memories are, those from his school days have become a bit less foggy with time.]

Maybe I'll become one of those shadowy guys... have you seen them? Ah... they're called shades, I think?

That's just what Sonia said, too...

[Souda notes of Nanami. And it's true, he'd think of Nanami as kind and nurturing as well... but maybe he's been thinking of the monsters incorrectly.]

I'd think so, but that's too easy. Maybe you're one of those rabbit dudes, like Steve.

You know—

[He waves a hand in front of himself;]

— how they change their face.

[Or rather, how they change everything but their face to disguise themselves, but he's kind of gotten the details mixed up.]

[Like Steve, oh— Komaeda wonders if Souda knows that they're neighbors? Probably not, but it is interesting to see that they already know some of the same people. Perhaps Ryslig is a bit smaller than he thought.

Still, those words catch him off guard, and as he turns to look at Souda, he cocks a brow, confused. With how close they're saddled next to each other, even the way even his nose wrinkles with mild upset is noticeable.]

I've always been honest.

[He huffs.]

I don't like to lie... it's just that sometimes if I have to, I will.

[Komaeda turns his head forward again, rather than eyeing Souda with his own prickling irritation.]

If you were to ask me a question, I would answer honestly.

It's not that.

[Souda actually notices certain things about Komaeda's body language, from this close. The idea that he's pressed on a nerve. But he doesn't back down as immediately as he may have before.]

To you it was only once, but I remember meeting you three times. Three different outfits, three different yous.

[So, in effect, more like a pooka's actual abilities than what Souda perceives them to be. And then, in an analogy that's probably a bit too specialized to his own needs;]

But it's more like, all the same parts, and three different machines.

[He doesn't realize the way he bristles further, and perhaps if he were already a monster—something with fur, or a tail—as much would be noticeable. For now, it's simply the way tension pinches between his shoulders and keeps a smile from settling on his face, which is likely the most telling expression of his irritation.]

My memories are sort of coming back to me, slowly. Like looking at them through smudged glasses you have to keep wiping off.

[He frowns, and a sigh is exhaled through his nose.]

There was the time we were students... and then when we were Ultimate Despair... then the future, right?

[A future he doesn't know. One he can't even imagine knowing, honestly. He's not even sure about how much time passed between his death and waking up here.]

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