['Shines so brightly', huh... It'd be nice to believe that's the kind of person he is, but realistically, how often does Hajime feel that way about himself? How many times has he really felt that way?
Yeah. If he ever believed that about himself, he wouldn't have signed that contract, would he. He wouldn't have let every part of himself get unpicked and taken apart and completely redone. He wouldn't have become Izuru Kamukura, and maybe what happened to Hope's Peak Academy wouldn't have happened... but there's no point in dwelling on things that have already happened and can't be undone.
Feeling alone, though... Can he tell Nagito what he means by that? If Nagito could have shared with Hajime things about himself that were really personal, then can't Hajime do the same now? Can't he at least try to? He... Yeah, he wants to. He takes in a breath.]
The thing is... [He glances aside a moment, testing his words in his head before saying them out loud.] Isn't it difficult to want to share yourself with others, or even with just one other person, when you aren't... exactly happy with who you are?
[His shoulders stiffen, and eye contact might be a bad idea right now. He leads his stare out the window, but more in the direction of the sea than the stars above it.
A moment passes, cool and still. Then, across from him, Nagito's voice wavers, and Hajime glances back at him in time to see him cover half his face with his hand. Nagito pulls it away almost instantly, and though Hajime can't see any wet streaks on Nagito's face, he does see a little redness under the eyes.]
Nagito, you... you don't have to thank me. I wasn't just going to leave you.
[He's already said part of the reason why (actually, he's said it enough times that Nagito had to ask him to stop saying it), but... what about the rest?
...No, unlike I care about you, the rest isn't something he can just come out and say.]
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Yeah. If he ever believed that about himself, he wouldn't have signed that contract, would he. He wouldn't have let every part of himself get unpicked and taken apart and completely redone. He wouldn't have become Izuru Kamukura, and maybe what happened to Hope's Peak Academy wouldn't have happened... but there's no point in dwelling on things that have already happened and can't be undone.
Feeling alone, though... Can he tell Nagito what he means by that? If Nagito could have shared with Hajime things about himself that were really personal, then can't Hajime do the same now? Can't he at least try to? He... Yeah, he wants to. He takes in a breath.]
The thing is... [He glances aside a moment, testing his words in his head before saying them out loud.] Isn't it difficult to want to share yourself with others, or even with just one other person, when you aren't... exactly happy with who you are?
[His shoulders stiffen, and eye contact might be a bad idea right now. He leads his stare out the window, but more in the direction of the sea than the stars above it.
A moment passes, cool and still. Then, across from him, Nagito's voice wavers, and Hajime glances back at him in time to see him cover half his face with his hand. Nagito pulls it away almost instantly, and though Hajime can't see any wet streaks on Nagito's face, he does see a little redness under the eyes.]
Nagito, you... you don't have to thank me. I wasn't just going to leave you.
[He's already said part of the reason why (actually, he's said it enough times that Nagito had to ask him to stop saying it), but... what about the rest?
...No, unlike I care about you, the rest isn't something he can just come out and say.]
I mean it. I wouldn't do something like that.